It's as if I have been planning someone else's dream all this time. These kind of things are not meant to happen to me. I mean, who am I to take off for a month on my own and travel across the country? Right?! And yet, accommodations have been booked. Travel has been confirmed. Connections with friends have been made. I have done all these things! On my own.
I keep thinking of things I need to do to get ready, then I start wondering what else I am forgetting! I'm really not used to this kind of thing. What if I don't even know what I'm supposed to be remembering. (!)
Truth be told: I'm sceered.
There. I've said it. I am excited AND I am terrified. In a good way. (I guess.)
*the gratitude project: dare to be grateful* has brought me so far outside my comfort zone that I figure I may as well keep stretching. Then I think, in order to s-t-r-e-t-c-h, I need to keep one foot inside my comfort zone, with the other venturing out further and further. (Figuratively speaking, of course.)
What would happen if I gently, bravely, and decidedly stood outside of my comfort zone - with both feet? What if I chose to write a new internal script, one that says: I can do this.
Yes, what if...
And in the meantime, I went to see this film on IMAX this past weekend. Amazing! Certainly gave me an appreciation for this journey I am taking... for the rails I will be riding. Lives were sacrificed to create this marvel. And in just 11 days, I will become part of that story too.